Prince Harry is getting vulnerable and we are so here for it. 

In an incredibly candid—and so, so important—interview, the royal redhead opened up to Britain’s Telegraph newspaper about what he’s calling “two years of total chaos” in his mid-twenties, which he says are a direct result of never seeking proper treatment after the death of his mother, Princess Diana, when he was just a tween. 

“I can safely say that losing my mum at the age of 12, and therefore shutting down all of my emotions for the last 20 years, has had a quite serious effect on not only my personal life but my work as well,” said Harry, who went on to say that he finally entered counselling when he was 28.

At the same time, the now 32 year old took up boxing, which he says was a fantastic way to get out some of the aggression he was feeling.

“And that really saved me because I was on the verge of punching someone, so being able to punch someone who had pads was certainly easier.”

You can hear more from Harry—30 minutes more actually—on a podcast he recorded on the topic with UK journalist Bryony Gordon, who’s interviewing celebrities about their own experiences with mental health issues. 

As for why he’s opening up now? “What we are trying to do is normalise the conversation to the point where anyone can sit down and have a coffee and just go ‘you know what, I’ve had a really s— day, can I just tell about it? Because then you walk away and it’s done.”